With a feint feeling of you wanting to seize existing just for the night… take a break of all the worries in your life…comes a little numbing sensation…that starts to grow rapidly in between your ribs… you feel like your not going to be able to contain that…but still you try to cope…and what else can you do …you’ve been coping all your life…

Accidentally…and I think it’s the only word that you can use in such a situation… it hits you…you’ve been burying yourself beneath all those worries…and they’ve been accumulating just one layer over the other… and you feel like you’re being crushed under all that pressure… and in a moment of self reflection…the answer is shimmering there …clear as a blue sky on the first days of spring…you should LET GO…let go of that shitty job where get so much done…but get so much less in return…just let go and take a chance…play the odds…and maybe things would fall right where you want them…or maybe not…but what the heck…why worry…that’s what taking a chance is all about… let go of worrying about family and loved ones and future plans … not because you don’t care …but because you do…and if you don’t let go of those worries you’re going to wreck yourself…and you’ll never be suitable for any of those mentioned above …

Sooooooo… It hits you…what you need to feel better is not seizing your existence…it’s just trying to exist to the fullest… trying to live life to the maximum…enjoy those moments that you have before you’ll need to worry for the rest of your life… and then plans start to fall into place…of what you should do for the next couple of months…you’re not planning…the plans are just falling into place… like a beautiful poem that keeps you dazzled and breathless for a couple of moments after reading it… and that’s what I call ACCIDENTAL POETRY…